Thinking on this

Oh, I've already noticed that this keyboard is typing what I have to say quite a bit later than I want. Needless to say, that means lots of typos. And going back, and re-typing, etc.

Yesterday was my birthday, the big three-nine. I don't feel 39. I can't believe I have a baby and I'm 39. I always thought I would've done things much earlier. I don't really mean anything by that - it's more of an observation of myself - but I just thought I would've. I also would've thought that I'd learned not to say hurtful things to people, even if they are truthful. Or maybe I would know how to say truthful things that might be hurtful more diplomatically, so they aren't hurtful. Either way, it seems I have not learned it and I said something stupid to a dear friend. I am debating with myself about writing it here - writing it, telling people, makes me take accountability again (I've told M and he was not happy with me) but it also gives people the opportunity to make me feel better and I don't necessarily think I should. My friend and I worked through it and hopefully, she will take what I said as constructive criticism and try to ignore the fact that I was so thoughtless. Sigh. It's weighed heavily on my mind since it happened Thursday and I don't know if I should bring it up again with an "I'm sorry I hurt you"-type card or let us move on? Any suggestions?

I don't have any photos to post today, even though we took some cute ones this weekend. I haven't done any downloading since then. I did get to the gym however, so that's a plus in my favor! And it's a short week, as I'm taking Friday off since my boss gives us a day off for our birthdays! Should be nice!

Summertime fun

I'm not thrilled about this photo of me looking so white in the middle of summer but I do like the two of us together. We were camping last weekend, it was hot and muggy and somehow we still had smiles on our faces.

Daycare is working out well. Some days are better than others for the girl. I think she just needs to get used to the fact that even though we leave her, we will be coming back for her. I can't say enough about what a good idea I think it is for her to be around other kids, even other people. We might have even left it a bit long, she'll have a harder time adjusting that she might have if we left her in earlier. But she will adjust! When she gets home, I make sure I give her lots of love and full attention if she wants it. But she's becoming independent and sometimes just wants to do her own thing. I took her to a local park, on the water, and we sat on the beach for a good half an hour getting sand in every crevice, as you do. I kept thinking of how a lot of times I find myself trying to keep her clean (more my issue than anything else) when being dirty is what it's about to be a kid. So the hand goes in the mouth, sand and all, and I try not to think of the dogs that might have peed on it! lol I know too many people who are trying to keep their kids clean all the time and then they get a little anal about it (the kids) and I certainly don't want that. She's going to get anal about enough things in her life, eventually!

Last night we took an infant CPR class. It was literally the first time we had left her with anyone other than relatives (aside from daycare). I think we did okay. We were only gone for an hour and a half but it was good. She was good (or so they said!) which is really the biggest relief. We might even be able to leave her with other people someday so we can go to dinner! lol

Well, I guess that's it for now. I uploaded that photo rather than use photobucket and I am typing WAY faster than it's showing on the screen. I don't think I'll try that again! For now, I'm going to sign off. I'll write more soon.....